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Saturday, December 20, 2008

Nog It Up!

I feel obligated to have a positive jot because Christmas is right around the corner, and well, it seems like the right thing to do. And so...

My BFF Head Wade loves her some Hood Golden EggNog. Unfortunately because the mid-west is dumb she is unable to enjoy her Nog until she comes home to the great snowy abyss of Tucitcennoc.

I happen to have some Hood Golden EggNog in my fridge at this very moment, and soon will be enjoying a glass while reading Forever Odd before the library sends out it's Hench men to gather what is rightfully theirs. (I don't go out in the snow, and since it won't STOP snowing...well you get the point).

Before the next storm dumps another expected foot of snow on us tonight, I would just like to say I am grateful that this state sells Hood Golden EggNog!
Positive blog complete!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

I don't have a title

My life is pretty low right now, in fact, if it weren't for my daughter I would be licking the pavement. I have this master plan that I have been working on, but it is taking way too long and I have no idea how much longer I can wait.

Right now I have 0 dollars in the bank and the 10 that are there came out of my assh&^% husband's paycheck (which he reminds me of everyday since June when I left my job). I can't find a job to save my life. I actually applied to Blockbuster! I am pretty much done with the whole, "oh it's the economy," bullshit, because I think it is all just bullshit at this point. I also don't think Obama is our savior...I think it is going to be the same shit different day scenario for the next four years. I also don't think McCain would have made a difference either!

So, you read this blog and think I am just bitching...well let me give you a little insight. Ten minutes ago I got screamed at for not buying dinner while I was at the store buying diapers and milk for my daughter with my last 20 dollars. Then when I wanted to make tea in the microwave, I had to unplug some battery my assh^&* husband plugged in the microwave spot...Because I did that, my husband threw the charging battery (cord and all) across the room and then opened the closet door directly under my sleeping 2 year olds room and slammed it as hard as he could. My 2 year old is awake now. All because I didn't use a different plug.

Tomorrow my loser of a husband is taking his 2 older daughters and ex-wife to a modeling agency almost on the NY line... my 2 year old has no food and I had to be screamed at for buying only diapers with my 20 bucks! Modelling agencies...wonder how much that is going to cost them...we'll just add it to the $1075.00 he gives monthly for child support and all of the "extras" they are always in need of...last week it was a new keyboard for piano lessons and Angie's $1,700.00 class trip!

My daughter just needed diapers.

My mother thinks I should go back to school and learn a trade to better mine and Karis' life. That's all well and good, but what do we do now? I am trying so hard to be strong about this, and I know I have always bitched about money...but this is serious. People think I should move in with my parents, but that is not an option. Along with the stress of my daughter and I living in one tiny bedroom, what would I do with my entire house filled with stuff? It won't work.

I need a job that pays well so Karis and I can get the hell out of here and start our lives stress free. I don't know why I keep ending up in these f'd up situations, but I must have done something to someone because I have been miserable for a very long time and I am at the point where it is impossible to sugar coat.

So, if anyone knows how I can get out of here (belongings and all) please let me know.

Monday, December 8, 2008

That's What I'm Talking About!

Sometimes a girl needs a little comfort food. Check out the link for pictures, because this just looked too good to pass up when we were watching the show!

On the menu for tonight...


Ingredients
2 pounds lasagna sheets
2 cups hand cut 1/8-inch slices pepperoni
4 cups tomato sauce, recipe follows
1 pound ricotta
16 ounces shredded mozzarella
2 pounds bulk Italian sausage, cooked
3/4 cup grated Parmesan
Directions
Preheat oven to 375 degrees F.
Boil 6 quarts of water, add pinch of salt, and cook pasta to almost done. Remove from water and shock in ice bath.
In medium saucepan add pepperoni and saute over medium heat until crispy. Remove from heat and drain on a paper towel.
In a 10-by-14-by-3-inch baking pan or dish, pour 1 cup of tomato sauce in bottom and around sides. Layer lasagna sheets on the bottom of the pan, overlapping by 1/2-inch. Add 1/3 amount of ricotta, 1/3 amount of mozzarella, 1/3 amount of sausage, then sprinkle generously with the Parmesan, add 1/2 cup tomato sauce, and 1/4 cup of pepperoni. Repeat this 2 more times.
On the very top sheet, top with remaining ricotta, tomato sauce, mozzarella, pepperoni, and dust with Parmesan. Bake for approximately 45 minutes. Remove from oven; let sit for 15 minutes. Cut and serve immediately.
Tomato Sauce:
3 ounces extra-virgin olive oil
1 yellow onion, minced
5 medium-sized garlic cloves, crushed
6 cups skinned and diced Roma tomatoes
2 tablespoons thinly sliced fresh basil leaves
1 tablespoon minced fresh oregano leaves
Salt
Freshly ground black pepper
In a medium saucepan, heat olive oil. Add onion and cook over medium to low heat until transparent. Add garlic and cook until almost brown. Then add tomatoes and cook for 1/2 hour over low to medium heat. Add the basil and oregano and continue to cook for another 1/2 hour. Season, to taste, with salt and pepper, cool and store in the refrigerator until ready to use.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Good Morning Sunshine!

I have a lot running through my mind this morning. I need to get this swarm on paper before it recesses to the back of my foggy under worked brain!

-Start dinner in crock pot so Nick has something to eat when he gets home
- Get Karis to my mother by 11:00 so she can go meet Santa at the mall.
- Shower, dress and go to different restaurants around town looking for P/T work
- Run in Barnes & Noble to look at cookbooks for Christmas present and possibly start a list for people who don't know what to get me. (Pick up address book)
- Dr. appointment at 1:45.
- Grab Karis after she wakes up from nap at mom's


My days are pretty jammed and I really hate the comments about being home all day and having plenty of time! Let me tell you, if you are a stay at home parent I understand that you have less time than someone who works 40 hours a week! I REALLY love the comment about finding a job and why hasn't that happened yet! OK, sure, my day starts at 6:00 every morning, I find about 30 minutes right about now to search for a position then it's whoosh off to crazy land I go!

Enough ranting! I have to go run a household, take care of a two year old, find a job and maybe have a little time to shower before 8:00 tonight!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Holy Poop On A Stick!

BERLIN - An American man who suffered from AIDS appears to have been cured of the disease 20 months after receiving a targeted bone marrow transplant normally used to fight leukemia, his doctors said.
While researchers — and the doctors themselves — caution that the case might be no more than a fluke, others say it may inspire a greater interest in gene therapy to fight the disease that claims 2 million lives each year. The virus has infected 33 million people worldwide.
Dr. Gero Huetter said Wedneday his 42-year-old patient, an American living in Berlin who was not identified, had been infected with the AIDS virus for more than a decade. But 20 months after undergoing a transplant of genetically selected bone marrow, he no longer shows signs of carrying the virus.
"We waited every day for a bad reading," Huetter said.
It has not come. Researchers at Berlin's Charite hospital and medical school say tests on his bone marrow, blood and other organ tissues have all been clean.
However, Dr. Andrew Badley, director of the HIV and immunology research lab at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minn., said those tests have probably not been extensive enough.
"A lot more scrutiny from a lot of different biological samples would be required to say it's not present," Badley said.
This isn't the first time marrow transplants have been attempted for treating AIDS or HIV infection. In 1999, an article in the journal Medical Hypotheses reviewed the results of 32 attempts reported between 1982 and 1996. In two cases, HIV was apparently eradicated, the review reported.
Huetter's patient was under treatment at Charite for both AIDS and leukemia, which developed unrelated to HIV.
As Huetter — who is a hematologist, not an HIV specialist — prepared to treat the patient's leukemia with a bone marrow transplant, he recalled that some people carry a genetic mutation that seems to make them resistant to HIV infection. If the mutation, called Delta 32, is inherited from both parents, it prevents HIV from attaching itself to cells by blocking CCR5, a receptor that acts as a kind of gateway.
"I read it in 1996, coincidentally," Huetter told reporters at the medical school. "I remembered it and thought it might work."
Roughly one in 1,000 Europeans and Americans have inherited the mutation from both parents, and Huetter set out to find one such person among donors that matched the patient's marrow type. Out of a pool of 80 suitable donors, the 61st person tested carried the proper mutation.
Before the transplant, the patient endured powerful drugs and radiation to kill off his own infected bone marrow cells and disable his immune system — a treatment fatal to between 20 and 30 percent of recipients.
He was also taken off the potent drugs used to treat his AIDS. Huetter's team feared that the drugs might interfere with the new marrow cells' survival. They risked lowering his defenses in the hopes that the new, mutated cells would reject the virus on their own.
Anthony Fauci, director of the National Institute of Allergy and Infections Diseases in the U.S., said the procedure was too costly and too dangerous to employ as a firstline cure. But he said it could inspire researchers to pursue gene therapy as a means to block or suppress HIV.
"It helps prove the concept that if somehow you can block the expression of CCR5, maybe by gene therapy, you might be able to inhibit the ability of the virus to replicate," Fauci said.
David Roth, a professor of epidemiology and international public health at the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine, said gene therapy as cheap and effective as current drug treatments is in very early stages of development.
"That's a long way down the line because there may be other negative things that go with that mutation that we don't know about."
Even for the patient in Berlin, the lack of a clear understanding of exactly why his AIDS has disappeared means his future is far from certain.
"The virus is wily," Huetter said. "There could always be a resurgence."

Friday, October 31, 2008

Oh Man!

It seems that I am no good at finding a job! I wonder how hard others actually work to find a new job, and I wonder if I am working as hard as them? I think I am not trying hard enough, but I think there is a perfectly good explanation for that!

First, I am not so confident with my skill set, and after having a past employer tell me that my lack of skills was the reason I wouldn't be getting a raise, I was convinced. I have had a bunch of different horribly paying jobs that have not related to one another. I have never made more than $35,000 a year, my last position was completely glorified and bogus and now I am in a rut and have no idea what to apply to.

I have had 2 interviews since June, both of which I was convinced I would receive a second interview. No such luck! I was brought in to take a test for a part time library position I failed because the test was WACK! After asking one of the 45 people taking the test (that is how desperate people are to get even a P/T job) we agreed that the questions made no sense and there wasn't a study guide!

Monster, CTjobs, headhunters, they are all a total waste of my time and I have had 0 response from any of them! I am a full time mom. Being a stay at home mom takes 100% of my time and all hours of my day, regardless of my mother thinking taking Karis for an hour a couple days a week should help. The truth is, nothing gets done! The house is a mess, I never seem to get in the shower before 9 p.m. and I am shot by 7 p.m..

Truth be told, the whole thing is driving me crazy and I am not sure what I should do now. Wellbutren here I come.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Greatest Scent Ever!

My mother had a candle burning on her mantle last week that smelled so heavenly I needed to have it. A true mom, she, unbeknown to me, stuck the candle in my daughter's diaper bag as a gift! I was so happy to have found the hidden candle when I got home. I have been burning it ever since and loving all of the candles aroma therapy! Whitebarn Cinnamon Vanilla! So yummy scrumptious I must order a million more so I will always have this scent!

Here is where it gets a little tricky, can't find the scent online and Bath and Body Works, so I am hoping after I call a few stores around G-bury...I will find my lovely candle! Wish me luck!

Not much else to mention, things are going very well and have improved. However, we are chanting the, "one day at a time" mantra and I don't intend to forget it! Confused? Yeah, I know! Me too.

Friday, October 17, 2008

OMG My BFF!!!

I love her so much, and you do too even though you don't know it yet. My BFF Kate is the most bestest friend ever and the world's greatest blogger/writer ever! I love her so! Oh wait, I already said that. I am not the worlds greatest blogger/writer ever...bear with me (is it spelled bear)?

I didn't have much to say tonight that stayed out of the personal, but THEN Kate tipped me off! Are you getting how cool she is yet? Check it out...Kate says in her latest blog...

The grocery issue has been resolved. I left the grocery receipt out for Brian’s review and told him my mom and Helen pay at least $120 each week for groceries (and sometimes still run out of food) so I think he’s coming around to the notion that food is costly. Vindication!I think I’m finally tired of Amy’s burritos. Too much of a good thing. I guess.And who else is bored by Grey’s Anatomy? Can something interesting happen? Pretty please? Grazie.Tomorrow I carve pumpkins!Happy weekend!

So! No biggie Wade, tell your man we spend the same as mom and Helen, not that it makes it much better, but I think that is exactly the norm right now depression looming and all. I have no idea what Amy's burritos are, but I can fully understand getting tired of anything in that store aisle at this point...I need not say more because I don't want to piss off some Head's that have no idea where I am coming from. Just know that I know that stuff has a tendency to get old after a while.

T.V. I love it so! Not Grey's though, yuck! So far this season I am once again addicted to Ghost Whisperer, and Numbers (I am a forever sucker for the repeated algorithm). For the new stuff, I am totally diggin on The Mentalist (hotty Mchotty) and The Ex List. I am NOT a fan of the new 90210, that sh&% is confusing as all get out and they should have just left well enough alone. Am I right? Are we going to split hair's?

Pumpkins, yes, I believe this is the perfect weekend for carving Head...carve it up! We'll have to exchange picks to see how they all came out! Love you to bits!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Pumpkin Town U.S.A.

Oh joyest of joys! Mid October in the great CT means many fun things such as apple fests galore, pumpkins, cider, yummy apple doughnuts, beautiful unmatched foliage, lots of that wonderful fake spider web stuff stretched across anything that stands still and of course, Pumpkintown U.S.A!

Being the festive mom that I am, I brought my 2 year old along with my mother, aunt and twin 5 year old cousins to Pumpkintown today! Oh the fun we had, and oh the back ache I plan on having tomorrow!

After Pumpkintown we stopped in Marlborough Pizza for a bite to eat. Shocked and disgusted are a few good adjectives for the way I feel whenever I travel back to my tiny hometown(it has changed so much). Marlborough Pizza (which I never thought would change) was a staple in ALL townie diets for the past 30 years. The family that owned it was known by all, the daughter was a friend of mine growing up, and their son's son was recently on Letterman or some such show because he is 2 and gifted. (The entire family is gifted, but I don't want to stray too far from my point) OK, Shock and dismay...I noticed right away as we pulled into the parking lot that there was a new permitee posted above the door! OMG! The pizza place is under new ownership and what do you know!!! The food was less than appealing! Ughhh! Not cool!

Something else historical not only for myself but for New England as a whole...the famous Marlborough Barn www.marlboroughbarn.com has closed! Jeez Louise! My mother bought all of her curtains there, they were the best! My grandmother from LI NY bought a coffee table there when I was 5 and she STILL has it! So sad that it has closed! Please don't let them close The Marlborough Tavern! George Washington himself stayed there AND there are said to be secret tunnels in the basement that were part of underground railroad.

Oh! Tonight we're having pot roast! Another New England favorite of mine...I am telling you this is the place to be in the fall! My daughter and I are also going to do a fun craft project with fallen leaves, crayons, wax paper and an iron! Should be fun! I'll post pics tomorrow if it works!

Peace Out!

Monday, October 13, 2008

Introduction To The Positive

Right now I am in the midst of some major changes in my life. These changes not only require tremendous strength on my part, but also a serious amount of focus on the positive to shut out all of the negative. Without boring you all with the details, I thought blogging about things I like, stuff that keeps me happy, motivated and most importantly going forward, would be a great idea! So, welcome to the beginning of my positive blog!

I spent my evening online surfing around, mainly t.v. schedules for the latest Halloween happenings (I am a huge fan of Halloween, horror movies and the like). Here are some links if you are also as big a fan as I am, www.scifi.com, www.amctv.com, www.fearnet.com, and www.tvguide.com .

Oh, I also became a member of Yahoo Answers! My nickname is Elar and I am still setting up the security settings, but see if you can find me in there!

One question: What is the deal with the Duggers??? Could someone please tie that woman's tubes! 17 and counting! I saw a show one time where a dog had too many litters and her uterus was so shot and stretched out, they had to remove it. That is all I am going to say about that!